Taiwan Nov.07

My birthday

... and it's gonna be 31... oh boy time pass so fast !!

it's been a long time I don't write here, I guess I wasn't in the mood, too many thoughts in my head!... But here we are again...

I guess my honey's Icard is the motive or inspiration that makes me write again...

I know we're going throw a lot of shit... sometimes bad moments, arguments... sometimes good memories and smiles (more than enough to keep trying and fighting for a better future)...

My love thank you so much for your Icard, it means a lot to me... I'm so in love, it's a pain in the ass things has to be so complicated though.

But I've good feelings about my 31st birthday,... for some reason I believe things are gonna change, for a good... let's see...

Thank you so much, my love (I know how much you're trying to change for me) fucking culture difference !!! Thanks a lot my love...

Super love you Chia Chia !!
huge, big, sweet kiss directly to your lips...

love you

...that's why it's worth it to wait for...

waiting

... and I'm waiting, and waiting,
but waiting for what...

It doesn't seems the right moment, it doesn't seems a good time,
maybe I never had one of those, who knows...

so indefensible, so fragile and lost,
maybe to many tensions in our love...

let's wait a little bit more...

Apple Center in Taiwan

I love you Gorgeous !

Those days in Taiwan

… And yes, after more than three months I saw her, I kiss her,

I finally hug her, and yes... I was with her again… I can't believe is done already…

Happiness and sadness, hope and frustration, patience and time are separated with a very thin line these days, and it’s because a situation like that it’s probably difficult to handle… but we will, if we want, we will do it!

I love you Chia Chia.

Now back in Spain, I’m nervous for your return trip to New York, and of course nervous about the uncertain future (nothing new anyway). I really would like to come back to have a life with you in the States, I’m not really sure if any of the other options could work… I guess we’ll see it sooner or later… and meanwhile in the present day I can only say is:

I love you!

Taiwan doesn’t look so bad or hot once you look at the pictures!

Now I’m just trying to remember the words I learned!!
不要 (not really sure about the spelling though)

The lost birthday

I loved to see you so happy that day, I know it was few weeks later but at least you had your birthday cake, with your candles, and your wish!! I hope you can make it true!!

Happy birthday my love !!

Hours ago...

Few hours ago I was in a place like that,
at the top of the mountain, thinking and day dreaming about you...

I though,... if I look to the west, where I see the sundown I will be actually
looking at you, across mountains and a vast ocean my mind will find you.

And there, in my imagination, I will huge you, and kiss you,
and huge you again and again... and after that, another kiss like if
I was kissing you for the very first time, in that old subway station of New York.

Because my love for you remains in the same way, it was frozen in time.
The paradox of a warm love frozen in time,... forever...

I love you so much.

Happy Birthday !!

My love,
I'm really sorry I can't be with you in a day like today, July 9th.
The day of your birthday. I wish I could be there with you and celebrate your twenty something !!! (hehehee) anniversary.

Although I'm not gonna be there, I just wanna wish you the best happy birthday ever!! And promise you, I want miss anyone else !!!

Super love you Chia Chia !

Here is my petite present, a small silly thing for you... The real gift is on the way !!

huge big lovely kiss and HAPPY BIRTHDAY Chia Chia !!

click on the image to open the gift.

Counting days and weeks

just counting sunsets to see you... to see you soon... to love you... even more.
I love you so much Chia Chia.

July 9th ahead !

Planing a long distance birthday party... Umm sounds a difficult achievement !

But nothing is impossible in this world !! Maybe some candles, cakes, some presents and a good internet connection could help !! Yeah, I think I'm gonna try that !!

But it should be a secret party, umm not really sure I can get that... let's see...

I love you gorgeous girl ! I can't wait to see you in Taipei my love !! (I'm afraid to say you will be one year older) I hope you won't get mad at me for that comment !! hehehe

tinny little bites, like tinny little kisses
my love.

I LoVe YoU

Answering

Who can forget the day you wanna broke up with me? I know this long distance relationship it’s being complicated, I know everything since we met it’s being hard.

But it makes sense, or how you expect everything it will be easier…

A beautiful, young Taiwanese travels to New York with her best friend and met a Spanish guy (none of them speak perfect English) but there’s some connection. I will never forget the best day of my life when after the most special dinner I ever had we finished in front of Astor Place station and I felt love at the first sight.

Who can forget our first trip to Paris? Especially the last night in the cool hotel and your bubble bath, thanks God we still have pictures to remember it! When I think about Paris, I don’t know why I think about wine… do you remember why? Anyway, it was magic, the Eiffel tower, Montmartre, the picture in the “photomaton”. It was amazing.

Hoboken, the best and the worst memories come into my mind… Great moments with you, I remember painting the walls and you playing with the dog, kind of the perfect American dream, or the day I came back after working the whole night with Tim Naylor, great day that day! And I remember the bad ones too, but I don’t wanna think about it, I just wanna remember Hoboken as a nice little place full of restaurants and take out food, living the most beautiful and exiting days of my life… and all because of you… I love you Chia Chia.

Taiwan, that’s your place honey, I’ve been there twice and I’m dying to go for a third time, to be honest I didn’t like it too much, as a place to live, but the second time everything changed, Now I love the night markets, the empty beaches, and even though I don’t understand them, I like the company of your family (including Mimia of course). Maybe sometimes I feel bad ‘cause I can’t communicate with them, and there’s an obvious mutual frustration, but hopefully one day it will be less difficult, in fact I think the second time it was better!

Now I can’t wait to go there, to see you there, to love you there…

But those are not the only moments I remember… there’s tones of good moments… the snowing day in Hoboken (“beautiful”), the trip to Spain, Mary Poppins’ day… tones of them…

I’m so happy to be with you!

And I know, we will have more… more amazing days, more memorial days, who one day we’ll tell to our children and we will laugh, and we will cry, ‘cause that’s ours lives about, a balance between laughing and tears…

Babe I promise you we’ll decline the balance to avoid the tears…

I love you!

… and about your coming birthday, oh come on you’re 4 years younger than me !!! You’re the one who miss more birthdays!! And you know I want miss one of yours anymore, never! And this one is not because I don’t wanna be with you, just because I can’t be with you.

Sweet, delicates and tender kisses my love…

Please let’s wait a little bit more and we will see the sunrise together… and after the sunrise our happiness…

I love you.

A whole sunset just for you...

... and then, I just look at the sky and I can see your face,
behind the clouds, behind the storm...

... and then, I know you are gonna be there, no matter what,
no matter what happened I will be there too, forever.

To support you, to encourage you, to love you ...
just to be with you.

Sweet little dolls

What I see in you ?

Probably the first thing... your eyes... those amazing, penetrating eyes.
What a gaze you've my sweet doll.

What I think about you ?

Without doubt, your intelligence it will never stop to surprise me, and probably the kindness on our first date !

What about our future?

Just one word: "Brightness" !!
I love you sweet little doll...

Feeling better…

Probably ‘cause I’m back home,
or ‘cause I finished the trailer,
or just because she feels better.

And that’s the main reason…

I feel good when she feels good,
I feel happy when she feels happy,
I feel great if she feels great.

I guess that’s love.

I love you Chia Chia.
You make me feel so happy!

Those days in Bricket Wood

... And after few days in UK, I'm back!

I feel happy to be at my parents place again, at least I can talk with her.
This are just some pictures from Luton and surroundings a really nice place, one more I will like to show to her.

That makes me think how wonderful it will be to travel around the world with her, be with her, and kiss her in front of the most touristic places, maybe that could be an idea for an album, who knows?

And now the next step I guess is just waiting. To wait for 6 more weeks and hopefully I'll see her.

See you in Taiwan gorgeous...
I love you so much.

The frighting forest

… Sometimes people need little help…
… Sometimes they just need forgiveness…
… And most of the times they just don’t want to suffer…

Conformism, Patience, Tolerance… Terms subjected to an expiration date.

… And it’s true, where we should walk if we can’t see the path? What the forest hides on the other side?
Most of us will stop walking and go back, back to our homes, our families, our shelters.

There’s nothing wrong on that.

But I will always be regrets to didn’t walk till the end of that path… to see what was behind…

Let’s say the path is our lives, the forest our fears, to come back all what we know, and to cross it the unknown future…

Most of us we will be happy coming back, staying on what we know, surrounded by the ones once love us.

The others will try to cross the forest in search of something even better.
Who knows how many will succeed or how many will be defeated?

No one can tell…

I just know I will cross the whole world for you, even though I knew I would die. I will give up my life just to see you one more time.

I love you.